Well I don’t get on here all to often and I’m not sure why… I’m about to unload some of my life to you all so I’m happy there aren’t very many of you that follow me!

Almost 3 months ago I lost my job. This wouldn’t be all that large of an issue except that I need it to live in the state of MN. I have searched and applied to over 20-30 jobs and have gotten maybe 4 responses. So here I am July 20th, 11 days away, from being homeless. Really an truly homeless. I can’t afford to pay rent anywhere and even if I had money saved, which I don’t in fact my account is in the negative, I can’t get a lease with out some stream of income that I can write on paper. I have never been so embarrassed in my entire life. I’m the biggest Loser ever!

So I guess I’ll continue to pray and cry and look for jobs until something changes….

So… I lost my boyfriend, love, and best friend all in one night. I don’t know what to do with myself.

I am going to through myself into a extreme workout and nerd fest. I muss him so much and it hasn’t even been more than a couple days. I can’t text or call and talk about my day or something exciting in my life. I don’t get to hear all the great things he is doing. My smiles have gone away cause there is no one to make me laugh. No one to cheer me up on a sad day. No one to hold me when I’m having a tough time. No one. I hate it.

I miss my boyfriend, love and best friend.

Good Night Tumblr Friends. I’m going to bed with a smile on my face tonight, and thats okay with me!

So what do you say to your man when you are jealous or worried about him being around women. Not because you don’t trust him but because it’s happened to you before, you know a man cheated. I mean I realize that it is my insecurity but I want to tell my best friend, my man, how I am feeling. What to do?

The worst part is that its not like he is just hanging out with the woman they work together. And I know the women. I just feel super insecure about the whole thing. But I can’t tell him to not take the job. If you have any suggestions email me: rheamiller24@gmail.com

So I’m at the Fine Line Music Cafe’. At a show that I booked and there aren’t very many people here and that sucks. Makes me feel like I failed. But then I think…. I got a call on Tuesday, from a national act venue in one of the biggest music capitals in the nation, asking me if me and my company could book the bill for Sunday(today). They gave me 5 days to book a show. And while normally I’d think gee what the crap I didn’t. You know what went through my head? “a national act venue in one of the largest music capitals of the world asked ME and MY company to fill their last minute bill in 5 days!!!” that is awesome! They trust me. I’ve made such a name for my partner and i’s company that they trust us to book a full bill in 5 days. Well, I did it. In one day I booked a full bill and now I’m sitting in the crowd with a smile on my face cause some people are here and I have paperwork to fill out at the end of the night! All smiles from this lady!! :)

I hate being so far away from home. My two baby cousins are 3 and 1 years old and are in critical condition, they were in a car accident along with their mother. It is times like today that I wish I was closer to home. I truly miss home and wish I was there or at least with in a few hours of there. I hope one day I will be close or be able to just hop on a plane and fly there. I feel like these are the times that not only are my baby cousins in critical condition but I am as well. It tares me apart to be so far away in my family’s time of need. I pray that they will be okay.

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Olivia (3) is doing okay and is out of critical condition and Emily is getting better, slowly but she is still hanging in there. 

I love my family dearly and I’m asking for your prayers. Thank you so much.

Today has been one of those days that you just want to crawl into bed and stay there all day. I have had one of those moments where you realize that life goes on… But you can’t go on with it with out changing. Looking back to 3 years ago, I don’t think I could have imagined myself doing anything else. And now I can’t see myself doing it at all. Does this mean I have to give up my once upon a time dream? I just don’t know anymore. I don’t want to be stressed anymore. I feel like I have so much going on and I don’t know what to do with myself. Do I stop everything and give up? Cause if I have to decide right now, that’s my decision. I don’t know, I guess I’ll figure it out. I have been talking to people that I thought would cheer me up but turns out that’s not what I want. I want to be upset and I only want to be cheered up by one person. And he can’t this weekend…
I’m just having a bad day and I’m in a funk… I hope I can get out of it.

Hello Everyone!!

I’m having a wonderful new year! I am truely happy with my life at the moment. I have wonderful friends, a great guy to share life with, and an amazing family that I wouldn’t change for the world!

I’m totally on top of the world right now. The business is coming along wonderfully. We just hired a new employee, which is a life saver!

I just love life right now! 

I have a few goals I have set for myself that started today. I’m excited to get that going and I’m excited for the ending results! 

Smile today! :) 

Think about how beautiful this world is and the people in it. And count your blessings.

I want to challenge everyone to not argue or fight with anyone this week. This will make you really stop and think about the situation, and you will realize that not all things are worth fighting or arguing about.

Love Life and Live it!!

So I got a new computer and I love it!! I knew that with my faith in the Lord everything would work out. Hopefully I’ll be able to get my info off my hard-drive or the charge the thief and I’ll get my photos and all back.

I have had quite the week…

I started eating better and working out what time I have to workout. I got a new computer, a new roommate, and so much homework I don’t know what to do with myself.

I’ve also come to a realization….

You know when you just feel as though there are friends who would do anything for you and then there are others who would do something for you if it fit into their schedule? Yeah we all have them, we may be one…. who knows?

Well those friends are “just for now” friends. I call them that cause they are great to have and I’m sure they are fun to hang out with but when it comes down to it 2 maybe 3 years from now those friends are going to be long gone and never speak to you again unless they need something of coarse.

Anyway, I guess I just realized that I do a lot for my “just for now” friends and I really shouldn’t. I mean honestly I take time out of my day, my very busy day, to make sure they are okay or to give them a ride or bring them something etc. etc. And you know, I’m starting to wonder if its worth my time. I think I’ll be a little more wise with my time from now on but I know I will still do those things for those people because thats who I am and I won’t stop being who I am just because “just for now” friends suck.

I challenge you to think about who your “just for now” friends are? And who your true friends are, the friends that do those things for you no matter what, the ones that stand by your side wether you are wrong or right, down or up.

Who are they? Who will be with you till the end?